I Can't give up.

After losing my USB plug-in, I was ready to give up on writing. Not because of that but also because I kept getting an overload of ideas in my head and it was too much. I felt like never getting my USB back kind of helped with the not wanting to write.

And I was doing well for a week with the giving up, but I kept getting an idea. Just like I did before. I got a new USB but didn't try it yet. Nothing's on it so far.

For some reason, I just have to write. So I'm going to give that another try but I will also try my plan to open up a shelter for unwanted pets and animals. I already had plans for that and was focusing on trying to achieve it, but for some reason, I just had the idea to write My Mysterious Man.

I know I wrote LOTS of things through the past year and a half, but some of my feature films meant more to me.

I'll explain in a future post what My Mysterious Man is. I was just explaining this one about how it's hard to give up on what I love doing. It's like smoking, you know, it's hard to quit. I don't smoke and never have, but I hear people explain how it's hard to quit because it's addictive. Well, I know I love writing and have a passion for it. And that's why it's too hard to not do anymore.

No more Just Like Julia Child

OK, so I was at the library in my previous town. And I might have left my USB plug-in plugged into the computers and tried to retrieve it yesterday and get this. It turns out that the only red USB plug-in that they found was white. Technically white and red.

And half of what I written was saved on it. So I know that I'll never see my USB plug-in again, which means Just Like Julia Child won't get finished, it will never get transferred to screenplay format and sent to a production company in L.A. and then Julie Powell won't get to see the film that was dedicated for her that could've been a good role for Leonardo DiCaprio.

This also means that my attempts at getting Julie to see my blog are lessened. And I was just writing the climax for JLJC. Hoard was having a verbal fight with Daniel Castro, not being a good friend to Ben Birch, and apologizing to Nathan Billiam, and Nathan apologizing to Howard. Then I stop so I can save it and go to my internship UNKNOWINGLY leaving my USB in the computer.

And it wasn't until later that night at home (using the bathroom) that I realized I left my USB at the library. And they were already closed by then. So I call them today (Sunday 11/08), then go there to find it, and they don't have it.

Julie Powell, now that I can never see what I've written in Just Like Julia Child, or other things I wrote and finished, this is the point where I REALLY need you to see it. I was kind of writing the Julia Child film as another way to bring you to my blog. And now that that's gone, my blog is the only thing I can think of to get you to know me.

Please, Julie. Nothing would make me happier unless you read what I had to say about you. I nearly cancelled my blog because you didn't get to me yet. I would totally appreciate this, Julie Powell.

What's Howard to do?

OK, so I'm working on Just Like Julia Child. By now, Andrew, the boss, lent Joanne the Julie & Julia book. That's my homage for Julie. And Joanne was going to show Howard the book, and that's when the climax started.

Howard is currently working at the restaurant and will get to work in the Photography studio once the head chef comes back and he doesn't know when that is. Nathan is very grateful for what Howard's done, but Joanne disapproves of it, and Daniel, the Jewel clerk, tries to talk Howard into going back to the camera store. Now Ben, Howard's friend, seems to not like the fact that Howard has no major in cooking and has only been cooking for a week.

And I wrote Howard to want to go back to the store as well as want to stay at the restaurant. But should he disappoint Nathan?

This is a real big decision for Howard. Come to think of it, there were many big decisions for Howard. And they were all regarding to how much his choices also affect Joanne. Since I've never been married, I just assumed that whatever career choice a man ponders about, it also affects his marriage with his wife. I could be wrong, but that's how I wrote Joanne to feel.

I also kind of wrote Howard to make a disrespectful comment to Daniel about working as a stock boy. Something about trying to work for something worthwhile. And Daniel said he's working so he can earn money to pay for college.

So Howard is affecting his marriage with Joanne and breaking a new friendship with someone who was trying to help Howard out. But he doesn't want to depress Nathan and quit. Nathan has been thankful for Howard's help.

Should he go back to the store and start at the position he was waiting for? Or stay at the restaurant and help out a family friend?